Alice’s Restaurant

September 26, 2006

Just when you thought it was safe to drop by

Filed under: FanLit — aliceaudrey @ 2:22 am

FanLit again!!!

Oh quit cringing.  At least most of my FanLit blogs have been short.

I am finding this FanLit thing a very humbling experience.  It is teaching me that umpteen million years of writing and a vast amount of education in the field of writing is not enough to overcome reader apathy.

In other words, trying doesn’t necessarily make you a good writer.

Wait a minute.  Exactly what was the smelly stuff that just hit the fan?

It’s true.  Having spent 30-60 hours a week for 40 or 50 weeks out of each year since 1999 in front of the keyboard, not to mention many, many hours in front of a typewriter over the years before that, isn’t enough to make me any good at this.

Books, classes, and critique groups seem to have helped, but they are not, in and of themselves enough.

I can not write a fabulous FanLit entry.  I CAN write at the drop of a hat.  I can come up with something that isn’t a complete waste of time to read.  But I can not make the readers stop for my promo and rave to one another that they loved with I write.  And that’s what I want.

To heck with the prizes!  I don’t LIKE Saks clothes.  I consider a contract to do a TV show a derailment of my career.  And I don’t have to do anything special to get the Border’s gift card.

So what’s the point?

I WANT AN AUDIENCE!!!!!!!

I’m sick and tired of writing for myself.  Writing for yourself is like playing tennis with a wall.  Sure, it can be done – and enjoyed –  but it’s not the same as the real game.

I want to make people laugh and cry and talk about how much they loved what I wrote.  I want them to tell their friends to not to pass it up when they get the chance because it’s so good.  I want to know that what I am doing with my life is worth while.

I don’t want to win.  I just want to do really, really well.

God help me, I’m not sure it’s possible.

Alice

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3 Comments »

  1. Wanting an audience is a huge part of why I blog, actually.

    Comment by miladyinsanity — September 26, 2006 @ 10:10 am

  2. I can see where you’re coming from. I haven’t made it a hobby/job to write just yet, but I’ve read enough novels to constantly say to myself that I should be able to write one and enjoy doing it. I constantly have ideas bandying about in my head, and I even type them all up, but I haven’t actually started yet, not like you. But I’m in this contest for the same reasons– I don’t care about the prizes, but I want to see if I can get positive reactions from people from my (novice) writing.

    Still, I don’t pay too much attention to the numerical scores in this contest, not with all those 0.5 and — bandits on the loose… The comments, however, are generally helpful if not positive, and that makes it more worthwhile for me.

    Comment by Cat — September 29, 2006 @ 4:07 am

  3. I get more positive comments than helpful ones. That’s fine with me *grin*

    Alice

    Comment by aliceaudrey — September 29, 2006 @ 6:59 pm


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